I'm a hateful person...

Have you ever looked at someone and thought how on earth have THEY received "X" and I haven't?

It sucks in the most horrible way; especially if you truly have love for the person.

"Your time will come."  "Stay positive" "It'll happen when you least expect it!"  "You deserve it so it will happen."  "Keep trusting God."

And I just want to say, "shut the fuck up" while I smile and nod at them.  But the words that come out of my mouth are, "you are right, I will just keep keeping on" and you hate yourself just a little bit more too. That's been my day today.  One person crying for what hasn't happened to them yet, but they are farther along the path than I am.  Like what should you be complaining about?  You realize I don't have what you have and I've wanted that thing even longer than you but you're complaining about this?  First. World. Problem.

But even in my anger towards them and my depression towards me, I know I must offer an encouraging word because I know in the grand scheme of things, it's never about me.  Help the other survive.  Even if you're feeling like you're dying on the inside each and every time you do.