The Purge..

Lately I've been feeling like I need to get things off my chest. Not only that, but out of my house, out of my life, and away from me. Back in college, I took a geology as a lab science class. I believe my professor was going through a divorce at the time because we were only taught two things. And we knew what we were going to review that day if he had on his wedding band or if he didn't. If he wasn't wearing his wedding band we were going to talk about closed systems and how nothing ever really goes away. I think about him whenever I want to purge. But I digress...

Well, let's get some things off my chest.

1). Don't come for me unless I send for you.

2). Do not try manipulate me into doing crap you want.

3). Don't try and tell me what I can and cannot do.

4). I don't want to solve your problems.

5). I don't want to continue on this path.

6). Your tears annoy me. Suck it up or leave my sight.

7). Take responsibility for your own shortcomings.

8). I hate that you abandoned me.

9). I hate that I feel at all.

10). You don't own me.

And even with getting those things off my chest... I still try to cover up that secretly I am hurt inside. But weakness has no place. Vulnerability becomes a four letter word. So, we must become robots. Unfeeling helpless creatures that are not affected by emotion. Neither happiness nor hate move us to any action. But if we do those things, how are we to actually live?

Maybe that's what I really need to talk about... How can I purge the hurt?