Siblings

I am the youngest of three children but the only child born of both my parents. I was raised with my half sister and my half brother always lived with my grandparents in another state.

I do not have a great relationship with either. My sister always hated the fact I had medical issues. I received more attention than she felt I should and from the very beginning, did her best to get rid of me. Like, she's given me away to the neighbors as an infant to get rid of me. My brother had other internal issues going on and he wasn't in the position emotionally to ever deal with me.

I see people have close relationships with their siblings and I have zero idea what that feels like or looks like. I literally haven't spoken to my sister in one year and I'm completely okay with it. I have spoken to my brother within this past year but really...I am more attached to his wife and their three kids than I am him. He could probably take a relationship with me now, just neither of us know how to proceed.

People say that your siblings are supposed to be your best friends. That was never true in my case. It was my cousins who were my best friends growing up. They were the ones I developed friendships with. They were the ones I told my secrets to (and to the moon as well... but that is another blog posting).