Space & Time

I haven't published anything in quite a while. I've written. But I couldn't finish any complete thoughts.

I'm not sure why.

Since I've last published, there have been some significant changes. A new man, a new job, and another suprise (to be named later. - no, it's not a kid). I've had the flu and pnemonia and gained a new best friend too.

Last night the guy came over and i knew he hd a question to ask me. He wanted to ask it in person because he didn't want it to be misinerpreted; he wanted me to see his face. He asked, "What do you think is missing from our relationship and what do you think we need to add?" He said women are more inutitive than men and he just wanted to make sure we were okay. I honestly had no idea what to say to such a deep and meaningful question. My mind raced with all these thoughts of what could be added but none of them were true. He didn't want an answer right then, he wanted me to sit with the question awhile and really determine what might be needed. His level of thoughtfulness and concern is what I most appreciated because he was determined to ask the question and make sure I understood where he was coming from.

I do have one suggestion; religion. But the whole topic scares me. We haven't talked about it before and I need to have some level of comfort without it being pushy or fake. It is something needed, but... I think we might need to have a serious convo about this. Sigh... Time will tell.

My spaces have changed too. My super cramped office has morphed into an even smaller cubical. That's okay. The higher my title, the smaller the office. I no longer see students on a regular basis. I am using spreadsheets more often now and my creativity has changed from interpreting youth needs to creative engineering. I am still not sure what I'm doing in this new position, but I'll learn. It's a good time to be alive. And I have a good guy on my arm.